It’s a humbling experience to return to a blog after nearly a month and see that the stats are still quite high. I almost cannot fathom that so many days have passed in silence, here, and yet, people still visit and read. In many ways, I’m still speechless, because of what has happened to me while I’ve been away, because of what is still happening to me on my journey.
I’ve taken a break from most of my regular activities. I stopped holding meetings at church. I didn’t attend my life group last time around. I skipped church Council meetings to stay home with my children. I haven’t written much of anything in the last four weeks. I haven’t read much in the last month. I haven’t commented, haven’t logged into Twitter, haven’t passed along many blog posts. I’ve been on a break.
And you know what I found in the silence? in the stillness? in my swing?
I found love.
There’s no big announcement there. I’m not getting married or anything. I’m talking about the love of friends and family and kids and regular readers.
I’ve found that love isn’t some grand romantic gesture but a card in the mail on the day you want to give up.
Love is the friend who humors you with another round of online Scrabble at 2 am, because you need to keep talking to someone.
Love makes you dinner and draws you pictures in crayon (Thanks, Sara!)
Love wakes up early, drags a stool into the kitchen, and pours you a cup of chocolate milk (Thanks, Mia!)
Love gives you big squeezy hugs until you think your head will pop off (Thanks, Wendy!)
Love chases you around the house, and when you’re caught, demands to be tickled (Thanks, Matt!)
Love is the honest assessment of mistakes you’ve made and the just-as-honest assurance that you can meet your goals and achieve yours dreams.
Love brings sandwiches to the homeless, groceries to the elderly, goes door-to-door and makes quilts for people affected by disaster and poverty.
Love shows up to teach students who are eager and those who can’t wait to leave.
Love plans ahead and love is spontaneous.
Love is green in the mail when you are staring at an empty bank account and your kids are in need of school supplies.
I’ve been blessed to have the best friends and family in the world, who know just how to love a (wo)man. I’ve been blessed to have each of those forms of love visit me in the past month, like the ghosts of Christmas past, present and future, to show me a better way.
I just want to say Thank You. Thank you for reading. Thank you for sticking with me. Thank you for Tweeting and FB messaging. Thank you for cards and calls and prayers and cares and thank you for the love.
How has someone loved you recently?